Hi all!

First time blogging on our very own cg blog! Hee.. :P Just wanna share smth with you all. Actually, Pam asked me to put it down on blog one.. :P

As some of you know, I'm serving in Children's Church. I've been serving in Children's Church for about 2.5 years now and, it is my 1st ministry. My visitation leaders have been asking me where do I see myself in Children's Church. They have faith in me to rise up as a visitation leader and they believe in me that I can do so much more. But I wasn't sure myself because of a few factors. Firstly, I didn't really choose to join Children's Church. If I don't remember wrongly, my cg members felt that this is the ministry for me, and during CCH recruitment, they made sure I sign up before I leave hall 8. Haha. Also, my cgl see me in the children's ministry and encouraged me to join. During one of the cg meetings, I remember my cgl got us to pair up and prophesy for one another. My friend (then cg member) said she saw me with one hand holding a lamp (which represents the Word of God) and another hand holding on to the kid's hand, and there are children following me behind. Other than this vision my friend saw, I don't really have a vision or hear from God directly to be in the children's ministry or rising up as a visitation leader. However, I remember telling God that if I were to choose, I would choose to work with children. At that time, I was re-taking my A-level as a private candidate (that's before I came to church). I was thinking about what I want to do with my life. Aw, to cut the long story short, I see the children's ministry as the prevention stage. I thought that while they are still young, I hope that the children will have as healthy a childhood as possible and if they are taught the right things, they will grow up to be less problematic and stronger and healthier (in terms of self-esteem too, emotionally not just physically healthy). These are the 2 things I held on to at times when I felt like giving up in ministry.

Recently, my visitation leader, also my zone supervisor in CCH told me he has plans to sign me up for a training class (to become leader in CCH, the one tt shuzhen is attending now). I started to consider if this is where I really want to go and if this is where God has placed me in. Sometimes, I also feel that I'm not good enough. The 2.5years in this ministry has not been an easy journey for me, and I wonder if this is really where God has placed me in. Also, it'll definitely take up more of my time. Since this semester started in October, I've really been enjoying school and the subjects that I'm studying. I enjoy all that I'm studying in school and really enjoy school alot. :) And I really hope I can do well this semester, not just mediocre grades. Sometimes, it can be tiring too. Rushing assingments, projects, report, essays, tests, presentations, especially when 3 of them clash on the same day! At times like this, sometimes I wished I don't need to do visitation. Last week was one instance like this. I was sick on Monday and Tuesday. On Wed afternoon, after taking my medicine, I felt drowsy halfway through the lecture. So right after lecture when school ended, I went home and slept. Thought I would sleep long, but only 3 hours. And I didn't sleep after I woke up at 8plus at night. I did my assignment at night and went for my 8am class at about 6.45am. I had a test on thursday and I was very nervous about it though it's an open book test. Really want to score. AFter the test, felt very drained. Wished I don't have to do visitation. But went nonetheless cos if I don't go, no one will visit the kids! HOw can?!

I met Paul cos he passed me the flyers as my visitation leader was not able to make it. He was very nice and asked me to stop at about 8.30pm cos I'm a girl and visiting alone. Also, the place is quite quiet. But I visited till 10pm cos I really wanted to visit all the children, everyone of them. On my way home, I was still thinking about the challenge of becoming a visitation leader and if this is where I really want to go. I realised that I really enjoy spending time with the children. Then, a thought came to my mind, that this church is built on the sacrifices of its people. Where the church is today is because of the sacrifices that the people have made in the past. People in the past have laid down their lives for others. Then I thought I want to do the same too, for the future generation!(and I was thinking of our new stadium in my mind) I told God that I want to do the same too! Then I remembered somewhere in the bible it says, "Jesus has laid down His life for us, so we also ought to lay down our lives for one another." And giving my time is a form of laying down my life for others. Because my life is basically made up of the amount of time I'm given and what i do with my time. So I thought I want to give more of my time for others and be more giving like Jesus. I told God that I want to be more giving and I want to become more like Jesus. :) When I'm more giving, I become more like Christ. :) Care more for others and be less self-centered.

Growing stronger, Loving deeper,
Zoeeeeeeeeeeeeee

To Pam:
Also wanna take this opportunity to tell you that, I don't know why, but after our 1st service together as a cg, as I was walking to CCH, I felt privleged and honoured that you are my cgl. Just wanna say "thank you" for the sacrifices that you have made. :) Love ya! Love n440! :)

posted by N440 ROCKS! at 11:07 AM

31 October 2008 marked the beginning of our cell group n440! though we may be young as a cell group, but we definitely noe what it means to be loving God wholeheartedly and loving pple fervently! we love to fellowship and have fun with each other! we are crazy, whacky, LOUD, enthusiastic, spontaneous, happy, colourful, funky, happening!! a day or even just a moment spent with us will NEVER be dull!! wherever and whenever there is fun, u can definitely not miss n440 out!! n440 is like a family to each of us too! so... come and experience our love, our warmth, our fervency for God and u can be sure that n440 is gonna WOW u away! ;)




Pamela - fun-loving, enthusiastic, cheerful and passionate, Pam is shepherd of the cell group. her love and friendliness can be felt the moment she talks to u! so, you can be sure that when u need someone to talk to, or when ur going thru the valleys of life, she will be there with u! oh yes! and she definitely LOVES taking lots of photos too!!



Aini - she is an unassuming gal who is always so willing to avail herself to help out in the cell group. aini is into fashion and shopping!! check out her online shop and u'll get wat i mean!! http://wonderlandspree.blogspot.com



Chris - a sunny desposition is what he carries with him wherever he goes! chris is a very good brother who is ever so ready to stand in the gap for the cell group! his zest for life is definitely infectious!



Ernah - she plays the saxaphone and has the talent for music! ernah is caring and willing to avail herself when help is needed! she loves shopping for anything under the sun too! so... be sure to date her when u need a shopping kaki!



Joo - a funky, rocker-style gal who noes what it means to have fun!! joo loves to play and she always seem so high!! so if u need someone to cheer u up, play with her and she's bound to make u smile again!!



Kelly - our ever-so-faithful treasurer! kelly is very meticulous and detailed! she loves hanging out with frens and just going crazy together with them! she's a gal who definitely treasures and values friendships.



Kenneth - our one and only locker in the cell group!! when kenneth is on stage, be sure to fasten ur seat belts as he will definitely blow ur mind away with his locking dances! if u wanna have a go at dancing, check kenneth out yo!



Kristin - she is a very smart gal who does very well in her studies! but dun get her wrong! she is definitely so-not geeky at all! kristin is friendly and her smile will never fail to warm ur heart!



Queenie - a very LOUD gal who loves to build relationships with others! she's truly a fren who would go the extra mile for others! and check out her cooking! she can definitely whip up a good dish when she's in the kitchen!



Seow chean - a very chatty gal who loves children alot! seow chean has a kind and compassionate heart. she places much value on friendships and she definitely loves having fun! she likes cracking jokes too!



Shijie - he's into songs, music, singing and anything that has to do with guitar! Shijie is indeed a guitar-fanatic! he is humble, giving and always places others before self! David Cook's "Always Be My Baby" is his trademark song! oh! he's also known as KUNGFU PANDA in our cg!



Stella - a very sporty gal who loves playing basketball! so if u wanna have a good workout, be sure to ask stella along! she'll definitely be able to teach u what it means to be fit and healthy!



Terry - he loves to hang out and spend time with his friends! terry loves to talk and break the ice! so u can be sure that every quiet and awkward moment would be gone with him around!



Weiming - drums is his passion! weiming loves to go jamming and drum his time away! dun be fooled by his cool and "indifferent" exterior, because underneath that surface lies a very warm and caring heart.



Zoe - a very enthusiastic and bubbly gal! zoe is always so high and will never fail to add some sunshine to ur life with her bubbly-ness! she treasures those around her alot, is very relational and friendly!